Solitaire

I can pretend for you
that I mean every word said 
it's true 
That I'd probably rather be 
like a stranger in disguise 
And act as if nothing ever

Died or faded away, 
got lonelier with age 
And time isn't on our side 

I'm sorry to take 
the thoughts that keep you awake 
And make it seem like they're overrated 
You certainly talk about me more when 
I fall down 
And when I get up 
my time is never enough 
Loved in front behind my back hated 
I guess it has everything to do with luck 

I can defend the truth 
but I sound like white noise to my friends 
As I raise my glass to you 
In a stupor we speak words 
That couldn't be more honest 

Lies we lived before 
are fights without a war 
I'm dead when it's in your head 

I'm starting to think that all the buoys we sink 
Are cutting our chances of being saved 
I see that the end is all we have to let us know 
I'd like to believe in something more than a dream 
For when the will to be one has faded 
I guess the truth will soon be deceived 
My friend that isn't there 
My solitaire